Gosh my heart is well and truly broken tonight. Just back from visiting my dear old dad. Took the poison and got covid anyway. He looked like a shadow, fading before my very eyes today. GP has lost two lots of bloods and samples for other issues, X ray results are taking months to come back. I could scream but no one is listening. This is a man who worked on his one and a half feet (train accident as a kid) from the age of 14, employed staff who were loyal to him for forty years as he's such a decent, kind man. Had to pay for his own hip and cataracts during lockdown, just in the vain hope of a game of golf. I remember in March 2020 praying every night that he wouldn't die in lockdown because no way could we have a shameful twelve people at his funeral. He is loved everywhere he goes. I went on a girls trip to Morocco five years ago. Was outside having a cig and making pleasantries with a German golfer staying at my hotel. Turns out he played golf with my dad in Hong Kong two decades ago and still keeps in touch with him! What are the chances? Sorry I'm rambling and thinking out loud. Now I am almost praying my father goes before the real shit becomes clear to those kind, trusting, decent people who just took the government advice, like he told me he regretted today. I feel murderous. And to think of good men like Ted ending their valuable, decent lives face down, devastated by alcohol, lonliness and hoplessness. It's too much. All of it. I feel like we're becoming trauma bonded. xx
Lorraine, I’m so sad to hear the terrible story of your Dad. Dr Dave Cartland does consultations, non-profit and comes highly recommended ....just a thought. You can find him at www.drcartland.com. I’m in no way connected to Dr Cartland but I personally will use him in future rather than my own useless GP surgery.
Thanks Jan, I forgot about Dr Cartland. The 'covid' (keep hearing that in a broad Irish accent now) has left him weak and a lot thinner but he was never breathless or low in oxygen so I'm of a mind it's something pre that which may be a bit more sinister and yet the tests always get lost...I've put my dad on nattokinase, NAC, Zinc etc to mop up some of the spike from the bloody jabs at least. If our tears were gold, how rich would we all be now?
I'm in that strange twilight Jules, you know where you feel anything could happen but everything is in slow motion. Am I going to be an axe murderer today or shall I pray the rosary for mankind? I need wine I think.
There are no words for what those bastards did. My Dad has dementia and mum looked after him at home throughout the shit show and continues to do so. She is an absolute legend. I’m so glad we never stopped visiting and supporting them.
Sunny/Ash does seem lovely,I’ve listened to a good number of his interviews including Bob’s and he called me ‘dearest Jules’ on Twitter which I thought was sweet 😀
The sun was out up here today too. You’ll be doing the pod in the bathroom in your pants again before you know it!
London black cabbies are salt of the earth! I have remained friends with one who took Nick and I to the Epsom Derby and we speak by text nearly every day. He’s fully switched on been in our camp from the beginning.. Poor Ted a tragic end and I do believe there are thousands who died like this due to lockdowns and loneliness. I’m off FB now can’t bear it any longer, my friends do not see it at all they think I’m mental. I did end with calling one woman a c..unt (oops the word just came out) she said fb was not the forum for vaccine deaths and injuries! Whaaat ! God bless you Abi a very powerful podcast x Suzanne
Suzanne, I left that toxic forum of Facebook 16 months ago and just wish that I had done it sooner. I got far more abuse on FB than I ever get on Twitter.
Hi Jan I joined Twitter on Sunday for about half an hour then deleted app, besides trying to figure it out I came across somebody complaining that they hadn't done the clot shot in a nasal form as there 15 year old daughter was needle phobic would rather spend my time with like minded people than the brainwashed. x
Jane, Twitter can be a toxic place too but there are many good people on there, doctors, scientists, virologists etc who were silenced by MSM but have a platform on Twitter now that Elon Musk has reinstated their accounts. I’ve learned to block the nasty people rather than engage with them. I don’t buy a newspaper or watch any of the news channels on tv so Twitter is a good source of what is happening in the world for me. It all takes a bit of navigating though.
Heartbreaking, and all for no reason. You are right we must pursue these bastards to the ends of the earth and never let them rest. Rest in peace Ted 🙏
So hard to hear about Ted it should never have happened, nobody deserves to die that way. Steve sounds like such a lovely man and his testimony is so similar to so many people who had family in care homes. God bless Steve, rest in paradise Ted. 💔
Ted wasn't even old he should have been enjoying his retirement not drowning in such isolation. A heartbreaking listen. Everyday I learn of colleagues being admitted into hospital - some otherwise young or fit and healthy. Friends having heart attacks or developing illnesses. We're already conditioned to accept it too. I guess it's how we cope, doesn't stop the hurt though. No other words. Lxx
Gosh that was heartbreaking listening to Steves story, R.I.P Steves dad and Ted🙏🏻😔xx
There were aspects of those stories that were similar to what happened to my mum and dad, it will be 3 years next week since we found my dad dead at home it was Easter Monday i had last spoken to him on Easter Sunday.
Just the thought of Easter triggers me( even though the date was different) i just feel so bloody angry still about it all, and i saw red a couple of weeks ago when a friend of mine told me to “move on” wtf!!!!! Best of it she clearly hadn’t “moved on because she was still testing herself and had a couple of days off work with supposed covid but conveniently tested negative after 3 days🙄i said its ok for you to say that but you haven’t been directly affected by something tragic happening to someone you love......i just despair.
I hope Steve is reading/listening to Abi daily and would just like to thank him for being an amazing man and for holding out the hand of humanity for Ted 🙏🏻xxx Lisa xxx
Hi Lisa hope your doing ok? What a super insensitive thing to say to you the most important people in your life passing away in dreadful circumstances then to be told to move on, some people just don't care or love & are hard as nails I distance myself from selfish people I bet she also gets full pay for being off work for so called sniffles,bullshittery covid my arse!! If she was self employed she'd be at work. When I lost mum I went into our local newsagents where they new my mum since a child and asked how she was I said I'd lost her 3 weeks ago " rrr it was expected " was her reply stupid cow I've never been back to that shop, whats wrong with people no empathy just a one liner & I was in bits inside. Hope George being a good boy & keeping yous entertained, I'm looking after my neighbours little old mini schnauzer Cindy for 4 weeks I've looked after her for years when her owner 86 goes to visit her sister in South Africa, she's a little darling she's deaf & almost blind super clingy & loves to be cuddled it's like a full time job & more as she dribbles a bit ( the joys of being an old girl)! So have to be on it thankfully mostly wooden floors & rugs rolled up but I don't mind in the slightly I love little Cindy & what's a little bit of piss! I hate the supermarkets they are all robbing us the zoflora I usually use to clean up accidents/piss is now £1.75 about 6 months ago was £1.10 thieves. Freddy wants to play with old girl Cindy & she does too but her back legs won't have it she is just so precious, anyway Lisa you take care & hope you managed to have a little break with hubby hope he's doing OK too lots of love jane xx
Hi Jane,yes i know i was so angry when she said that,the last couple of weeks i was not feeling well at all i have been in so much pain and keep losing sensation in my hands thats why i haven’t commented for a week or so.Spent a lot of my time in the bath dosed up on painkillers,the warmth of the bath seems to ease the pain felt a bit better this week though.A new bit of kit was delivered yesterday so my son has been showing me what to do as i am not very techie minded, its a rife machine and we tried it out yesterday bit blown away really cos you could really feel some sensations when i used some hand held cylinders so we will see how it goes🤞
George is good thanks it was a year yesterday since we had him he has been a really good pup/dog so far he loves it outdoors. Hubbie is doing ok thanks he is still having all the physio every week haven’t had a break yet its next week both of our healthcare professionals have recommended it for us probably just wont be able to do much but see how we go.
Ah i bet Cindy is lovely i love schnauzers, our floors downstairs are wood, tiles and rugs we had carpets before but just get too dirty with dogs at least they can be mopped.I didn’t realise that zoflora had increased so much in price probably cos i have got a stock of it under my sink( i also ended up with the contents of my mums under sink too🤦♀️)
I started to go thru some of the boxes from my mums i haven’t been able to face it since wow what a journey some of the old photos and birth/ death/ marriage certificates they are amazing its so weird holding those things that are over a hundred years old in ur hand🥰 i felt like i was transported to a different time. Have a fab week Jane especially looking after those furries🐶🐶.........Lisa xx
Lisa, I’m sorry to hear you’ve been in pain, let’s hope the new but if kit works 🤞🏻going through your mum’s boxes must’ve been hard. What a time you’re having! Thinking of you xxx
And yes its hard going through those boxes especially with my dads death anniversary looming next week, brings back such terrible memories especially of the covid lockdown bullshit.
Hi Lisa I'm so sorry your having a rough time & in pain I hope the rife machine works for you , do you have your bath full of nice sensory smells? I hope so there is so much nice stuff you can get for the bath my mum used to love lavender I do too but can't use anything in the bath just some simple soap as get rashes & itchy. Yes it's going to be very painful the first anniversary of your dad's passing its like you count down the days with dread & it's still not that long ago, I now live in my family home and my loft still has a lot of my mums stuff millions of photos & TVs and a bloody fireplace with fire I said to my Steve how the hell did my mam & dad mamage to get them up the hatch hole I will never know ! it's hard to part with stuff & if you got room for it just keep it it's a little bit of a comfort knowing their belonging & still around I know everyone different. Well say belated birthday wishes to George he sounds great, the weather is tipping down here today but still had to get my Freddy out I got one of thoes sticks to throw the tennis ball on he loves it & was rotten by time we got back home so he's had a bath & dried now wrapped in a quilt. lots of lovexx
What a heartbreaking listen, poor poor dearest Ted 😭😭 that was so upsetting, and Steve's dad, oh my god 😡 credit to you Abs for holding it together as well as you did 💔 RIP Ted and Steve's Dad 🙏 🙏
Jail would be too good for these people, bring back the death penalty, that's all I can say right now, I'm so angry.
Thank you for sharing Abi, I listened last night and said a prayer for Ted, Steve and his Dad 🙏🙏🙏 very red eyes this morning 😢
Ted and many more Abs. Who's Worlds the powers that be decided to shutdown and throw into complete chaos upheaval and a living nightmare. Theirs nothing in history to compare it to, a cruelty that many couldn't see an end to, and worst of all perpetuated literally everyday with non-sensicle dic-tats that confused and terrified. Cutting off avenues that people were finding a little relief from the relentless shite they were spouting, using the sycophantic Police who were all too willing to add to the misery. It was literally extreme mental torture. The country lost what was left of it's Soul. So glad to have found like-minded people who 'got me through'. And so thankful my Mother didn't have to endure it. Keep them shoulders Broad and Proud. xx
‘Not the forum for vaccine deaths and injuries’! It’s not the time or place Suzanne😂 . God it’s mental out there. My friends think I’m mental too.....you know that meme where Homer Simpson is slowly walking,backing himself into a hedge ....that’s what I think of them doing. Hope you’re doing ok....can’t be easy losing friends too after Nick xx
Forgot to say Abi if you can get “we the people” printed i would love to purchase a few copies. I am going away for a few days next week and am thinking of printing some copies off and leaving em where people will read them thought maybe with the duty free booklet might be a good start!!!!
Gosh my heart is well and truly broken tonight. Just back from visiting my dear old dad. Took the poison and got covid anyway. He looked like a shadow, fading before my very eyes today. GP has lost two lots of bloods and samples for other issues, X ray results are taking months to come back. I could scream but no one is listening. This is a man who worked on his one and a half feet (train accident as a kid) from the age of 14, employed staff who were loyal to him for forty years as he's such a decent, kind man. Had to pay for his own hip and cataracts during lockdown, just in the vain hope of a game of golf. I remember in March 2020 praying every night that he wouldn't die in lockdown because no way could we have a shameful twelve people at his funeral. He is loved everywhere he goes. I went on a girls trip to Morocco five years ago. Was outside having a cig and making pleasantries with a German golfer staying at my hotel. Turns out he played golf with my dad in Hong Kong two decades ago and still keeps in touch with him! What are the chances? Sorry I'm rambling and thinking out loud. Now I am almost praying my father goes before the real shit becomes clear to those kind, trusting, decent people who just took the government advice, like he told me he regretted today. I feel murderous. And to think of good men like Ted ending their valuable, decent lives face down, devastated by alcohol, lonliness and hoplessness. It's too much. All of it. I feel like we're becoming trauma bonded. xx
Lorraine, I’m so sad to hear the terrible story of your Dad. Dr Dave Cartland does consultations, non-profit and comes highly recommended ....just a thought. You can find him at www.drcartland.com. I’m in no way connected to Dr Cartland but I personally will use him in future rather than my own useless GP surgery.
Thanks Jan, I forgot about Dr Cartland. The 'covid' (keep hearing that in a broad Irish accent now) has left him weak and a lot thinner but he was never breathless or low in oxygen so I'm of a mind it's something pre that which may be a bit more sinister and yet the tests always get lost...I've put my dad on nattokinase, NAC, Zinc etc to mop up some of the spike from the bloody jabs at least. If our tears were gold, how rich would we all be now?
Trauma bonded indeed. Tough times Lorraine,it’s just so shit. Hope u are ok xx
I'm in that strange twilight Jules, you know where you feel anything could happen but everything is in slow motion. Am I going to be an axe murderer today or shall I pray the rosary for mankind? I need wine I think.
I’m sorry Lorraine. I feel so very sad for so many people. I’ll say a little prayer for him if that’s ok? What is his name? xxx
There are no words for what those bastards did. My Dad has dementia and mum looked after him at home throughout the shit show and continues to do so. She is an absolute legend. I’m so glad we never stopped visiting and supporting them.
And don’t get me started on Bridgen!
RIP Ted and Steve’s dad.
Steve,Steve’s Dad and Ted ❤️🙏
Good news re potential publishers🤞
Sunny/Ash does seem lovely,I’ve listened to a good number of his interviews including Bob’s and he called me ‘dearest Jules’ on Twitter which I thought was sweet 😀
The sun was out up here today too. You’ll be doing the pod in the bathroom in your pants again before you know it!
Xx
Jules, I remember the pod from last summer with Abi in the bathroom in her knickers!
I think she did a few sitting on the loo,head on the tiles 😂
😂
London black cabbies are salt of the earth! I have remained friends with one who took Nick and I to the Epsom Derby and we speak by text nearly every day. He’s fully switched on been in our camp from the beginning.. Poor Ted a tragic end and I do believe there are thousands who died like this due to lockdowns and loneliness. I’m off FB now can’t bear it any longer, my friends do not see it at all they think I’m mental. I did end with calling one woman a c..unt (oops the word just came out) she said fb was not the forum for vaccine deaths and injuries! Whaaat ! God bless you Abi a very powerful podcast x Suzanne
Sending you and your dad some prayers. Never had FB always thought it to be toxic. Seems us mental people have more compassion than the normies.🙏💜
Suzanne, I left that toxic forum of Facebook 16 months ago and just wish that I had done it sooner. I got far more abuse on FB than I ever get on Twitter.
Hi Jan I joined Twitter on Sunday for about half an hour then deleted app, besides trying to figure it out I came across somebody complaining that they hadn't done the clot shot in a nasal form as there 15 year old daughter was needle phobic would rather spend my time with like minded people than the brainwashed. x
Jane, Twitter can be a toxic place too but there are many good people on there, doctors, scientists, virologists etc who were silenced by MSM but have a platform on Twitter now that Elon Musk has reinstated their accounts. I’ve learned to block the nasty people rather than engage with them. I don’t buy a newspaper or watch any of the news channels on tv so Twitter is a good source of what is happening in the world for me. It all takes a bit of navigating though.
The msg below was meant to be in reply to you Suzanne x
Heartbreaking, and all for no reason. You are right we must pursue these bastards to the ends of the earth and never let them rest. Rest in peace Ted 🙏
So hard to hear about Ted it should never have happened, nobody deserves to die that way. Steve sounds like such a lovely man and his testimony is so similar to so many people who had family in care homes. God bless Steve, rest in paradise Ted. 💔
O Abi emotional one today. Lump in the old throat. How can we ever forget the utter devastation. God bless you.😘
Ted wasn't even old he should have been enjoying his retirement not drowning in such isolation. A heartbreaking listen. Everyday I learn of colleagues being admitted into hospital - some otherwise young or fit and healthy. Friends having heart attacks or developing illnesses. We're already conditioned to accept it too. I guess it's how we cope, doesn't stop the hurt though. No other words. Lxx
What a very sad and tragic story about Ted. Steve’s story about the terrible hospital experiences with his dad too.
Paul the scouser seems to cancel at the drop of a hat 😂 May be it’s his immune system!
Looks promising with James Delingpole’s friend to get our E-book published.
Beautiful music to end the pod 💖
Gosh that was heartbreaking listening to Steves story, R.I.P Steves dad and Ted🙏🏻😔xx
There were aspects of those stories that were similar to what happened to my mum and dad, it will be 3 years next week since we found my dad dead at home it was Easter Monday i had last spoken to him on Easter Sunday.
Just the thought of Easter triggers me( even though the date was different) i just feel so bloody angry still about it all, and i saw red a couple of weeks ago when a friend of mine told me to “move on” wtf!!!!! Best of it she clearly hadn’t “moved on because she was still testing herself and had a couple of days off work with supposed covid but conveniently tested negative after 3 days🙄i said its ok for you to say that but you haven’t been directly affected by something tragic happening to someone you love......i just despair.
I hope Steve is reading/listening to Abi daily and would just like to thank him for being an amazing man and for holding out the hand of humanity for Ted 🙏🏻xxx Lisa xxx
Hi Lisa hope your doing ok? What a super insensitive thing to say to you the most important people in your life passing away in dreadful circumstances then to be told to move on, some people just don't care or love & are hard as nails I distance myself from selfish people I bet she also gets full pay for being off work for so called sniffles,bullshittery covid my arse!! If she was self employed she'd be at work. When I lost mum I went into our local newsagents where they new my mum since a child and asked how she was I said I'd lost her 3 weeks ago " rrr it was expected " was her reply stupid cow I've never been back to that shop, whats wrong with people no empathy just a one liner & I was in bits inside. Hope George being a good boy & keeping yous entertained, I'm looking after my neighbours little old mini schnauzer Cindy for 4 weeks I've looked after her for years when her owner 86 goes to visit her sister in South Africa, she's a little darling she's deaf & almost blind super clingy & loves to be cuddled it's like a full time job & more as she dribbles a bit ( the joys of being an old girl)! So have to be on it thankfully mostly wooden floors & rugs rolled up but I don't mind in the slightly I love little Cindy & what's a little bit of piss! I hate the supermarkets they are all robbing us the zoflora I usually use to clean up accidents/piss is now £1.75 about 6 months ago was £1.10 thieves. Freddy wants to play with old girl Cindy & she does too but her back legs won't have it she is just so precious, anyway Lisa you take care & hope you managed to have a little break with hubby hope he's doing OK too lots of love jane xx
Hi Jane,yes i know i was so angry when she said that,the last couple of weeks i was not feeling well at all i have been in so much pain and keep losing sensation in my hands thats why i haven’t commented for a week or so.Spent a lot of my time in the bath dosed up on painkillers,the warmth of the bath seems to ease the pain felt a bit better this week though.A new bit of kit was delivered yesterday so my son has been showing me what to do as i am not very techie minded, its a rife machine and we tried it out yesterday bit blown away really cos you could really feel some sensations when i used some hand held cylinders so we will see how it goes🤞
George is good thanks it was a year yesterday since we had him he has been a really good pup/dog so far he loves it outdoors. Hubbie is doing ok thanks he is still having all the physio every week haven’t had a break yet its next week both of our healthcare professionals have recommended it for us probably just wont be able to do much but see how we go.
Ah i bet Cindy is lovely i love schnauzers, our floors downstairs are wood, tiles and rugs we had carpets before but just get too dirty with dogs at least they can be mopped.I didn’t realise that zoflora had increased so much in price probably cos i have got a stock of it under my sink( i also ended up with the contents of my mums under sink too🤦♀️)
I started to go thru some of the boxes from my mums i haven’t been able to face it since wow what a journey some of the old photos and birth/ death/ marriage certificates they are amazing its so weird holding those things that are over a hundred years old in ur hand🥰 i felt like i was transported to a different time. Have a fab week Jane especially looking after those furries🐶🐶.........Lisa xx
Lisa, I’m sorry to hear you’ve been in pain, let’s hope the new but if kit works 🤞🏻going through your mum’s boxes must’ve been hard. What a time you’re having! Thinking of you xxx
Thanks, have used the kit twice now not sure whether its connected but it has made me really tired after running the programme.....its worth a try🤞xx
And yes its hard going through those boxes especially with my dads death anniversary looming next week, brings back such terrible memories especially of the covid lockdown bullshit.
Thinking of you Lisa . Big hugs to you and gorgeous George ❤️
Thankyou
Hi Lisa I'm so sorry your having a rough time & in pain I hope the rife machine works for you , do you have your bath full of nice sensory smells? I hope so there is so much nice stuff you can get for the bath my mum used to love lavender I do too but can't use anything in the bath just some simple soap as get rashes & itchy. Yes it's going to be very painful the first anniversary of your dad's passing its like you count down the days with dread & it's still not that long ago, I now live in my family home and my loft still has a lot of my mums stuff millions of photos & TVs and a bloody fireplace with fire I said to my Steve how the hell did my mam & dad mamage to get them up the hatch hole I will never know ! it's hard to part with stuff & if you got room for it just keep it it's a little bit of a comfort knowing their belonging & still around I know everyone different. Well say belated birthday wishes to George he sounds great, the weather is tipping down here today but still had to get my Freddy out I got one of thoes sticks to throw the tennis ball on he loves it & was rotten by time we got back home so he's had a bath & dried now wrapped in a quilt. lots of lovexx
What a heartbreaking listen, poor poor dearest Ted 😭😭 that was so upsetting, and Steve's dad, oh my god 😡 credit to you Abs for holding it together as well as you did 💔 RIP Ted and Steve's Dad 🙏 🙏
Jail would be too good for these people, bring back the death penalty, that's all I can say right now, I'm so angry.
Thank you for sharing Abi, I listened last night and said a prayer for Ted, Steve and his Dad 🙏🙏🙏 very red eyes this morning 😢
Xxx
Ted and many more Abs. Who's Worlds the powers that be decided to shutdown and throw into complete chaos upheaval and a living nightmare. Theirs nothing in history to compare it to, a cruelty that many couldn't see an end to, and worst of all perpetuated literally everyday with non-sensicle dic-tats that confused and terrified. Cutting off avenues that people were finding a little relief from the relentless shite they were spouting, using the sycophantic Police who were all too willing to add to the misery. It was literally extreme mental torture. The country lost what was left of it's Soul. So glad to have found like-minded people who 'got me through'. And so thankful my Mother didn't have to endure it. Keep them shoulders Broad and Proud. xx
‘Not the forum for vaccine deaths and injuries’! It’s not the time or place Suzanne😂 . God it’s mental out there. My friends think I’m mental too.....you know that meme where Homer Simpson is slowly walking,backing himself into a hedge ....that’s what I think of them doing. Hope you’re doing ok....can’t be easy losing friends too after Nick xx
RIP Ted, same age as me, God bless you xx
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Forgot to say Abi if you can get “we the people” printed i would love to purchase a few copies. I am going away for a few days next week and am thinking of printing some copies off and leaving em where people will read them thought maybe with the duty free booklet might be a good start!!!!