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Sounds like you had a great time in Durham, I love the idea of the substack family having day trips to Cathedrals wouldn’t that be fab?

When you were describing the little old man on the train you could’ve been talking about my Dad, since my Mum died in 2020 amid the care home/hospital fiasco he has been left broken-hearted, my Dad goes out every day either on a bus or a train just to pass the time. My Dad is 92yrs old unvaccinated and very awake, unfortunately he is just waiting to die he just doesn’t want to live without my Mum. Thankfully most people Dad meets on his travels are very kind as I do worry about him on his own but he says he likes to be alone to people watch and get lost in his thoughts. I went to see my Dad this evening he had been to Liverpool today and went in to a Catholic Church to light a candle, like you Abi he prays for all of his family and all mankind he’s such a compassionate man and I’m so lucky to have him as my Dad. It makes me so sad that after such a good life with my Mum he is left traumatised by the cruel way he was kept away from his beloved wife in her final weeks of life - all in the name of COVID. We can’t just move on too much has happened.

Thanks once again for your great podcast Abi, you are part of my daily routine now - better than any news bulletin!

Love to all the substackers x

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Your dad sounds amazing Catherine, so much respect for him. So sad he couldn't be with his wife at the end, how could people be so cruel. My mum and dad were in hospital at the same time in August 2021. My dad was dying, mum wanted to go and be with him, they said no. The took a photo of him and showed it to my mum. Dad had dementia, he died alone without any family beside him. Last year my husband was unwell, he had a lot of pain and was bleeding from places he shouldn't be bleeding from. One of the doctors casually told him it was probably cancer. This was before any test results had cone through. It completely traumatised us as a family, my poor husband looked like he'd been hit by a sledge hammer. Thank God it was nothing serious and he is fine now. No doctor should be allowed to say such things unless it has been proven to be true.

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Oh Hani what an unbearable situation for your family, there are no words to express how this level of cruelty has impacted on families like yours, and then for your husband to be treated in such an appalling way is just unforgivable.

My Dad was with my Mum when she died but it was no thanks to the care home who had kept him away from her for months, on the pretext that he needed care for himself he booked himself in to her “care” home for a 2 week respite break it cost him a small fortune but he’d have paid anything just to see her. When he was allocated a room the staff told him he would have to isolate for a week before joining the other residents, he went crazy and said he wouldn’t be isolating and wanted a bed in his wife’s room! I don’t think the staff knew what to do with him so they let him be with her. After a couple of days with my Mum he realised that she had been totally neglected she had bed sores and was very very unwell, she wasn’t eating and nobody had been trying to feed her, Dad asked for a doctor to examine Mum but they told him there wasn’t anyone who could come until the following day, he asked for an ambulance and when the paramedics arrived they took her straight to hospital. My darling Mum had sepsis and was given 12hrs to live, again my Dad caused mayhem in the hospital and refused to leave her side - he stayed with her until the end she was the love of his life, he is bereft and heartbroken without her.

We should never forgive or forget how decent human beings were treated Hani and my heart goes out to you, I hope life is treating you kindly right now I’m sending all my love to you and a your family. x

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Thankyou Catherine. I have no words left to express how I feel about what happened to your poor mum and dad, but your dad is an absolute hero in my eyes. When things are wrong we need a warrior to fight alongside us. My parents were living in Cyprus when this happened to them. My mum had to have a heart operation the month after my dad died. I was able to fly to Cyprus to be with her when she came home. I looked after her for a month. My god the hurdles I had to jump because i never took the vaccine, just to be able to fly there, including wearing an electronic bracelet for two weeks so they could make sure I didn't leave the house, makes my blood boil. I endured all of this for my mums sake, so I could be with her. If it was just me would have told them to F**k off in no uncertain terms.

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God God you were treated like some sort of criminal Hani, totally inhumane but I’m so glad you won the battle to be with your Mum when she needed you. x

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Oh Catherine bless your dear Dad's heart ❤️. I get emotional when I hear how vulnerable our elderly are. I will light a candle for him at Mass this Easter. 🕯

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Thank you so much Alannah, that’s so kind of you x

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It’s so nice to hear about your Dad again,he does sound wonderful. Bless him,yes a shit few years at the tail end of his life is just unforgivable. Hope you and the fam are doing ok xx

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Thank you Jules, yes we are all ok although still no further on with Alex’s heart problem he was discharged without anything being resolved! Anyway I kicked up a massive stink and had him re-referred to cardiology so just waiting for another appointment!

Hope all is well with you and Mr Jules xx

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Not easy having to deal with the hospitals Catherine,it’s draining and a shit state of affairs,poor Alex. We are ok thanks. Xx

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Catherine, I love to hear about your wonderful Dad and glad that he is still volunteering at the food bank. I remember when you said he had trouble being accepted for other volunteer work because he is unvaccinated. It is so sad that he has to carry the burden of not being with his wife when she was dying. We will never forget these bastards, they must all go on trial. Much love to you Catherine xx

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Thank you Jan, you are always so kind. It means so much to Dad being able to do some volunteering, thankfully after several knock backs from numerous organisations the people in this food bank don’t care about being unjabbed, they are lovely people who make Dad feel very welcome and needed, in reality he’s only handing over a few tins and a bag of potatoes but it’s better for his mental health than any anti depressants!

I hope you are well Jan and your husband is ok. x

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Your dad sounds amazing, bless him💙

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He is amazing Trudi, volunteers in a food bank every Friday too!

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Love him💙💙💙

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Aww, im so happy you enjoyed your time with Zach, sounds like you had a wonderful meal.

The children’s corner in the cathedral would’ve set me off too.

The prayers were beautiful. I’m so glad that when you lit the candles, your jacket didn’t catch fire, imagine the headlines 😊

That old man on the train🥺, bless him and bless Gail for her empathy towards him.

Regarding the ‘BIG reveal... utter shit and I’m not interested either.

Today, Benjamin’s best friend sent me a video of him, he had just had his haircut, he was wearing no top and it’s from behind so you see his back.

Honestly, my heart skipped a beat. Sat here looking at him, his flesh, knowing how real he was.

I even spotted a little mole on the top of his back🥺😔💔

I won’t put it on social media as I know he wouldn’t approve.

So grateful to his friend for sending it, she was so excited that she’d found it again.

It just made it real again that he’s not here💔

Sorry for the pity party and I hope everyone is ok.

💖💖💖

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Oh Trudi, heartbreaking but lovely for you at the same time! Never apologise for talking about Ben, you certainly don’t come across as feeling sorry for yourself you are amazing! x

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Oh Trudi, I hope you're hanging in there ok. That sounds so, so tough. xx

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🥺

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Aww Trudi...I bet u just wanted to touch him,bless you. Xx

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Exactly that🥺

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I know 🥲😘💙

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❤️🙏

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Sending lots of love and hugs Trudi xx

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Much love Trudi 💖

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Glad you had a a fab trip to Durham. The cathedral looks stunning. Mr Jules googled the wooden sculptures as you were talking us through 😂 the music was heavenly.

I’ve lost a few Brenda’s too.....it’s bn a very harsh lesson in human nature that’s for sure.....I think I’m still in shock about a lot of it and a bit numb tbh even after all this time.

I’m busy trying to avoid all talk/footage of Humza....I’ve no room in my head for that prick atm.

JHB and her straw hair can do one too.

Happy Meaningful Wednesday people xx

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Yes Jules, we have all lost a few friends like Brenda. It took covid for these ‘friends’ to reveal their true colours. I don’t miss them at all, even friends of 30+years. I think it is probably just a relief not to be surrounded by their negativity and their hateful remarks.

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Straw hair😂😂😂 Wurzel Gummidge

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Cup of tea and slice of cake

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You and your nephews must have a very special relationship Abi. What a lovely time you must have had together. Cities are not great for mental well being, its so good to get out of them and be in the countryside. I grew up in London, lived and worked there for many years, i used to love it, but the london i knew doesn't exist anymore.

I thought the same as you Abi when i heard Paul O'grady had died. He was the same age as me when he died and i read about it on my birthday, so that really cheered me up!

I've never followed any religion but I believe in a higher power/creator. I was brought up as a Muslim. I've been in many mosques and churches, some are incredibly beautiful and calming. I've been moved to tears reading passages from Christ's life and feel deeply hurt and outraged when I hear people insult or demean Christ. The church has behaved unforgiveably these past three years closing their doors just when people needed them.

Hope everyone is well. Looking forward to spring and longer, light filled days xx

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Hani, London now is definitely not the wonderful London I grew up in.

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I have so many wonderful memories Jan but I don't recognise the place anymore. Its not my London.

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Is much easier to be moral when every thing is going ok, but not when dictators are assaulting us.😢 The churches, drs, scientists, institutions, politicians, unions shut the doors on us. 🤮🤑🤮for personal gains🤮Our peers were useful idiots helping the oppressors to execute their agenda against us🤮🤑🤮Trust no one, question everything 🙏

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Trust no one and question everything is the best advice anyone can give. I never realised that our churches were paid to keep their doors closed. No wonder they weren’t in a rush to let the flock return. On a holiday in the New Forest I went to a church in a little village. It was still closed when it could have reopened and a notice on the door said “for the foreseeable future all services will be conducted by Zoom” 🤦🏼‍♀️🥲

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😔

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Absolutely 👍

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Sounds a wonderful time with your nephew. Yes I shared your fb post on Paul O Grady and got blasted but they were suitably reprimanded by me .. just fell short of calling them the C word 😉. I’ve had some lovely girls serving food on trains up and down to KX and yes it makes a difference. No idea what this big reveal is but there wasn’t one. Great podcast Abi it’s my daily fix x ❤️

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Great reveal 🤔

Bozo getting deadly convid was a psyop to be exposed - sorry confirmed - through an FOI request and he was actually holidaying with the Schwabs on the shores of Lac Leman at the time

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No surprise there Ian, they lied to us about everything.

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Thanks for your prayers Abi. Very much needed this week.

OMG was watching a video from 21st century wire about vaxx from 2014 MMR ect that we give to kids I had to turn it off I was sobbing. Every parent should watch this before they give any to their children. It just shows what evil is out there.

Glad you had a beautiful time with your nephew, sounds a well grounded human.

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Love listening to your trip to Durham Abby, I would have went and said hello if I known you were there🙂! Debbie, I've just discovered that the UK give FORTY JABS to children before the age of 10!!!! WHAT??

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I just can't get my head around it. Mind blowing.

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Exactly like me, haven't been able to wrap my head around it. It's a '6 in 1' x 3 in recent years plus the rest! Just can't understand new parents allowing it 🙁

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With what we now know, I don’t think any parent should vaccinate their children for anything. It seems that the childhood vaccines are responsible for the huge rise in autism.

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Totally agree Jan. Im so lucky my daughter saw this and my grandson wont be having any. Im also lucky that she took him out of school after 1 term. We as a family are home educating him.

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I would be home schooling if I had young children now. Otherwise they will be indoctrinated with everything that is wrong and often evil too. Best wishes to you and your family. You have definitely made the right decision.

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Abi, what a wonderful trip to Durham. Your nephew Zac sounds like the relative we all wish we had. I’m sure that the trip to Durham and the visit to the cathedral did you a world of good. A beautiful choral piece at the end of the podcast.

What a great idea, SubStack family outings to Cathedrals and churches etc. I would definitely be up for that. I feel at peace in a church and always light a candle and say a prayer. Some churches only have battery operated candles now 😳 Flicking a switch under the candle is not the same as lighting a candle. God bless you Abi xx💖

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Thankyou Abi for talking about Durham cathedral. I am dying to go there one day. The cathedral is described as a mountain built by men and I love the story of St Cuthbert. Speaking of all things religious, I have watched The Chosen. It is so so good. I told my sister about it and she said she watched it. Apparently it's one of the most watched shows on Netflix. But there are 2 more seasons!!! You can watch them on The Chosen app. Yes, there is an app. I wondered if there were more seasons and couldn't understand why they didn't include other miracles like bringing Lazarus back from the dead! So that will be my Easter viewing 😊. You can cast the shows from the app to your tv 📺.

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Thank you Abi.

A beautiful reminder of the sanctity of life.

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As a lapsed Catholic but very much still a believer in God, I thoroughly enjoyed your description of Durham Cathedral and the prayers. As you say, the Churches shut their doors firmly and I'm not sure I can ever forgive that. I do love to light a candle at St Marys Cathedral in Edinburgh when there though.

Re the big John Bowe /David Cartland reveal, as of an hour ago they've all deleted their tweets saying the same. What a surprise...

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It’s cruel, especially those who are in desperate situations and are pinning their hopes on it.

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Very cruel as so many are still buying into it. I was 'friended' by one of that crowd on twitter two years ago. Chatted back and forth and then when I said I was not impressed by the constant hints of mahooosive things to come from John Bowe's account, I was immediately slagged off as a whiny ideologue and blocked. I now use WhinyIdeologue as my twitter bio. Rather suits me. But I am tres wary of the lot of them now.

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I’m still creasing up at ‘Jizzabel Spunkshot’ from a couple of weeks ago every time I think of it!!🤣🤣🤣

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😂😂

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Glad you’re pushing for Alex to get sorted, bless him💙🥺💙

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Love you and all your fabulous podcasts Abi! You are one of the few extensively travelled and experienced women who explain everything so well, with great wit and insight.You speak better than most about what my sister and I feel and think.Your observations, especially on the madness of last 3yrs, are sport on!

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Martin (loads of money) Lewis

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