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I am so sorry that you are struggling, particularly today Abi. Great words of wisdom from your darling Terry. In addition, the world is such a fuck up right now. There is so much for us to process and deal with on many different levels.

Jonny Woodrow is wonderful to listen to on your TNT show.

A very touching email from the lady in Queensland about her brother in the Police. Thank God for the verdict in their favour at long last but what a terrible toll it has taken along the way.

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Abs I get it about Terry .. it’s this all consuming feeling that just comes over you. Crying with you here when you sobbed. I’ll never ever understand why Nick had to leave me .. he literally carried me for 42 years, that’s a lot of water under the bridge. Sending you my love and completely understand your feelings today. God love you Abs, you really are such a lovely lady xx ❤️

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Abi 👋 we all have days like this and support and love you through them, and always do just as you do us. You are real and relatable and bang on about the things that matter for people just trying to get by in the everyday.

So sorry for grief for your beloved Terry

♥️ He must be so very proud of you.

Thank you Abi and I hope you can just

switch off this evening 🥰💖🥰

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They say it's good to talk and this pod may be your therapy. So sorry to hear you feel so low. Grief is a funny old thing, sometimes it creeps up on us like a black cloud on a sunny day. It always catches me out when I haven't got an umbrella!

I have always admired the way you hold it together whilst paying tribute to your darling Terry. I am sure in the spirit world he is immensely proud of you and is guiding you on.

Hope you feel in better spirits soon. Sending you a big virtual hug 🤗 x

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Sorry to hear of your shit day/week/month. We now live in the information age, unlike anything known throughout all of human history. People years ago had their share of trauma but day to day life was for most peaceful, if not hard work. Now we live with endless negative info, its too much!!! And on top of that, we have to deal with our personnel lives, with the highs and low's including even grieving for loved ones. No surprise it all gets too much at times!!! I know i'm stating the obvious above, but this is what I thought of after your pod. Look after yourself Abi, and thank you for all you do here and TNT.

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So sorry, Abi. ❤️ There is so much that I want to say but I am struggling for the right words. I understand what you are saying and I send love and support.

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Thank you Abs 🙏

My heart breaks for you. I can’t bear the thought of you missing Terry so much and knowing there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it 💔😔

When everything feels so overwhelming I just have to go back to baby steps. Get through this day and then the next.

Know that we all think the world of you xxx

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I hope you are getting more sleep now after your daughter concerns, Shouty xx

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Abi darling my heart hurts for you, hearing your grief for Terry and the sob in your voice. Thank you for being so open with us here. I hope it helps to vocalize it. I really believe we could be real-life friends if not for the distance. One day I hope to meet to in person and give you a massive hug. Keep your head above water. You feel Terry with you every day, I know you do. One day at a time. ❤️ x

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Thank you for your open heart and honesty . I lost my husband in July after having to deal with the nhs and their eagerness to put him on end of life for 2 years . I really think you would love qi gong if you try it . Good for calm , stability ,movement and of course chi ! You can do it anywhere . No equipment needed .I love it !

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Hi Abi

Whilst it has been a win of some measure for the QLD case it’s worth noting what Peter Fam an independent Human Rights Lawyers in Australia said on the case

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The worst thing about the decision is that the Court suggested that if the Commissioner of police (for example) had actually considered the human rights related advice she received, the Court would have decided that the direction was reasonable in that restrictions on the ability of employees to give informed consent was reasonable in the circumstances. This represents another implicit endorsement by a Court of the ability of an employer to force employees to undergo medical procedures absent informed consent, which is in my opinion should not be justifiable in any circumstances, ever.

Dosent bode well for future mandates.

Always touching hearing you talk of Terry. It comes in waves and hits always unexpectedly with something so small bringing back a wave of memories.

I lost my husband young and agree with you that healing oneself is the only way to manage.

Mind you I am sure he is happy to not be here for this shit show but I do feel his concern often for myself and his kids.

Much love

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Yes Anne, you are absolutely right. It’s terrifying. Although the decision in court sends a message that there IS strength in numbers. Sadly some were vaccine injured. If those still working for QPS have witnessed this, what are the chances that they’ll fall for it again? If everyone stays united and says no, what can the bosses do?

This case raised a couple of other important points. When the issue of sickness came up it was clear that there had been a stark increase amongst the vaccinated. When asked, the commissioner stated she had not gone back and reviewed her decision at any point. That is basic policing; debrief and review your decision making. There had also been a vote of no confidence against her during this period.

Even with the existing ‘laws’ I’d like to think people will disobey unjust or unlawful orders. Her idea of fast tracking people from the commonwealth will fail. You cannot teach integrity.

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Sorry to hear that you're feeling low Abi.It is terrible losing a loved one, and especially a lover best friend like Terry sounded.I don't believe in therapists either.They keep the angst going in order to keep the appointments/ money rolling in.You just have to remember that Terry is with you and is giving you advice through your dreams and in your gut instincts

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Sorry you are having a bad day Abi. Everybody feels like this sometimes. I worry what's going to happen to the grandkids in the future. Just have to take one day at a time xx

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Abi you are inspirational , even when you say you can’t cope somehow you still put yourself out there, soldiering on as an exemplar to us all of the value in just keep ing going.

You are connecting the good that’s out there buttressing against the evil so it’s no wonder at times it gets to you as being a light to so many is hard work. Please know how loved and sincerely appreciated you are from another Aussie admirer! X

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Part 2 .. oops forgot to say yes Jonny Woodrow I could listen to him for hours he’s up there with Bob Moran 👏 x

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Wow, what a podcast! Absolutely astonishing. You touched me so deeply by voicing your difficult emotions and being so vulnerable and real with your Substack family. Abi, I love your authenticity and passion. You are a true inspiration to us freedom fighters. Thank you for everything you do.

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Forgot to say: that email about the Aussie policeman shows that we do have real unsung heroes amongst us. What a great man

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Dear Abi, I’ve just started listening to this pod and because you are sad, felt the need to comment and say how much you have helped me get through these past years, and my heart hurt when you spoke about Terry, how much you must miss your soul mate. 💕

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