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Happy 28th Birthday to dearest Benjamin, who has a huge crowd cheering on his special day!!!! Xxxx

Love to Trudi, the best mum, who is keeping his memory alive here, with the AD fam.

See you all later X

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He sure does and I know he will be glad that his mum is being supported.

Thankyou Abi

Thankyou all

💙💙💙

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GM all. The day has arrived, I’m having a gentle day, my plans of going to York , I don’t think I can cope going on my own.

So, I will make his shepherds pie and remember the good times🥰

Thankyou all for being so kind, I know Ben will be smiling on us all.

Go easy on the JD up there son😊💙😊

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Dear Trudi a bit late in listening to this today. I do hope you got through Benjamin's birthday ok and the shepherd's pie turned out well . I'm away at the moment there's a nice church down the road I too will light a belated candle for all those who have lost someone. x

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I got through, thankyou Suzy, bless you and so very kind and appreciated. I hope you’re having a nice time 💖

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Hey everyone,

Apologies, I’m neither use nor ornament this evening. I’m self medicating with vodka, tomorrow is Benjamin’s birthday, he’d be 28. He was born on Wednesday 31st August at 22:35, he weighed 6lbs15oz.

Honestly, I can’t bear this pain.

I can’t stand life without him.

Queasy pain.... I get it

Im signing off for today...

Catch you tomorrow 🥰

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Trudi darling, you know I am thinking of you..

Take it easy and remember the good times..

I don't know what to say, my Mark's anniversary is coming up on 12 September - just dread it.. how do we keep going? I just don't know... much love to you.. xx

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Much love to you, Jan. Xxxx

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I don’t know either , we just do I suppose.

It’s my 50th next week, all I want is him, he was here for his aunt and uncles 50th.

My parents are taking me out for a meal so that will be that.

They still have Ben’s birthday on their calendar, they will be having a bad day too, Ben adored them.

Hope you’re okay Jan and I too send love to you 💖💕💖

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Trudi, God bless you. I hope the vodka is helping in your grief. I turn to alcohol too in times of stress, grief and depresssion. Sometimes it helps, other times not so much. Take good care of yourself. My heart goes out to you xx

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Happy Birthday Benjamin,sending love and thinking of you today Trudi. I have lit a candle for Ben this morning in an ancient church in Dubrovnik old town and one for Terence and my Dad too! 🙏❤️ will send a pic on Abi’s telegram channel. Xx

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Oh Jules, thankyou so much. How beautiful of you 🥹🥹🥹

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31/08/94

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Abi,i shall read your letters to Terry soon as I get the chance,thanks so much for posting.....I will have to pace myself me thinks. I cried yesterday reading my book The Hundred Years of Lennie and Margot,lovely little book guys if u haven’t read it already. As I said to Trudi,I have lit a candle today in Dubrovnik old town for. Benjamin,Terry and my Dad.....it was a beautiful old church that I felt drawn to go inside. ❤️

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Thank you Jules, that is such a beautiful thing to do Xxx

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It sounds beautiful, thankyou again Jules🕯🕯🕯

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The thought of UN soldiers forcing people to have the 💉is nothing less than terrifying. If this is true we need an uprising. I do not want to live in fear of these soldiers or have to go into hiding. How long could I even do that for🤷‍♀️ I will never have the jab whatever the government threatens me with.

Letters to Terry, so beautiful Abi but sad at the same time. I have only read six of them so far but will read the others too. I think it is wonderful that you found the love of your life in Terry. Some of us never have that experience.

The mention of that odious Jon Gaunt makes me angry. Your treatment by Jon Gaunt on Neil Oliver’s show that evening was nothing short of appalling.

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Whenever you get to read this Trudii I want you to know that we care, Benjamin will never be forgotten. Sending love and healing your way, look after yourself x

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Dearest Abi

I have spent this evening poring over your heart-rending daily memories of your darling Terry..

I was so happy to see you received nothing but kindness where ever you travelled in your despair. People are so lovely. Our crosses we bear hardly dimunish over the years - all we can do is plod on, and be grateful for dear friends , whether they are virtual or we are able to hug them. Thank you so much for sharing your pain and memories with us .. Jan S xxx

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They’ll be doing craft classes in schools - mask sewing and blanket knitting to keep warm

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I will never forgive those bastards that supported medical apartheid or mandating vaccines.

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